How to fix a bad week

Dear Strangers,

It is Thursday today and today I finally feel I have had a successful one.

This week has actually been different than what I am used on, than what I have set out for myself and planned to have.

Before each Monday starts, I plan myself a week with all of the things that I want to accomplish and usually I do give my best to cross things off my list. This week started without a plan, which is always a bad idea. I had it in my head, just not on the paper, and that is the problem. Everything that is not written down, whether on paper or typed down just slips out of our hands.

Lately, I have been really focused on my goals. This week I slipped. This week my focus lacked. This week started wrong. On Monday, I spent some quality time with my sister. On Tuesday I had a coffee catch up with my best friend that I haven't seen for the past month. And on Wednesday, I used the time after work to just sleep because I needed a break.

This is not how my week usually goes. My focus is usually good and I try my very best from Monday to Friday to have "full days".

When I lived in Suzhou I always felt like there wasn't a moment of my day wasted. And my life was filled with people, memories and places too, aside from my work and studies. I know things change and that your life studying and working are not the same, but wasting in any shape or form is not something I want to be a part of my life.

Monday and Tuesday of this week I have spent with people dear to me. But those were still just few hours of the big twenty-four. I could have put in work after that or before that. I could have absolutely organized it better. Instead, I used it as an excuse.

Favorite year of my life so far is still the year I have spent in Suzhou. Since that year, there were so many more beautiful things that have happened in my life. Now when I look back and think about why it was so good, I think I am closer to understanding the actual reason, especially the second semester. I would get up early to workout, then I would attend classes, after the classes I would work as a teacher for a few hours, then study that day's class content and in the evening go out with friends, or take a walk. China is a very safe country, in my opinion, and if I was tired and didn't want to talk to anyone that day I would just go out and enjoy in all of its pretty city lights on my walk. That is and was much better rest than sleeping after work is or will ever be.

I want full days in my life. Days that I spend on things that make me happier, challenge me to get stronger or get me closer to my goals. Not days filled with excuses.

We can't go back in time and these three days have already gone by but the week still has four left. What my mind wants to do right now is actually just give up the rest of the week and start again from Monday, but that would be a very bad choice. That is not a good idea. Life happens only once and time should never be wasted.

Today I don't have a list of ways that I would give to teach you how to fix a situation like this. Today I just want to tell you that if yesterday wasn't good there is always today or tomorrow. Today you can at least make a first step to make it better, maybe even fix it all. Don't allow yourself to waste this moment, today or now.

I don't want to be a soft person. I am not tired and any kind of excuses I could make, make me a soft one. So I refuse it.

In reality, fixing a bad week is not difficult. You need to decide you're not willing to waste time, forgive yourself for whatever happened and start again.

What are you going to do about today?

With love,

Violeta